hey guys this is Maikeh, and this is the Maikeh site, the number one site in the world for your Maikeh needs.
i created a website on this page bc i heard neocities was like a spiritual sucessor to Geocities, which sounds cool to me so i gave it a try.
there's nothing here for now, i have lots to do soooo... see u soon
i never used neocities lmao i forgot that i had a page so im going back to tumblr again
I've somehow remembered that I had a neocities page. Hell, I forgot about its existence after i last updated this "page" 3 years ago. I might not use it now either since I came here just to vent before I forget why I'm always mad.
Also, I never used Tumblr. I only see the explore section and envy the creativity of the people who post stuff. For me, I don't know what to post or talk about because my dumb ass can't think of anything.
I got 2 pages, one from 2012 and another from 2014. Much like this page, I forgot about my 2012 page's existence, so it's always been there with me, but as I said, I can't post, and the 2014 one, well... I wanna delete it and transfer the user name, but I don't want to login because I have a suicidal post from a terrible moment that happened in 2017. (still happy I didn't kill myself.)
Anyways, college life's been a mess during these last two years. First I got COVID in Oct. 2020 (w long term :( ), then the consequences came. I started failing on stuff, something that's never happened to me.
I've gotten up various times after that, despite giving my hardest at best, I continue to fall down. I've just failed 2 out of 5 assignments this semester, in the first one, I teamed up with shitty people and on the other, I could barely work. I don't think I'm a capable person, because of all this fucking fatigue.
I really wanna wake up from this fucking nightmare. Where was I when I started this page back in 2018? I was just a Junior in high school, I had barely anything to worry about, of all things that used to make me happy, I remember coming home, chilling and playing some Fortnite, basically shit like that. (well, i still play Fortnite, but when I get home I overthink about how my college life's been a fucking mess and how I don't think i'll graduate one day because of how badly it's going.)
I might be troubled this much, yet I don't want to commit suicide or self-injury, because I know I can, and will get out of this eventually.
I know my site isn't popular and/or has traffic, just wanted to use my little space to let everything out (and if i get out of my troubles, maybe have a look back at this in the future and laugh, or feel proud because I somehow got out of it.)
All the pages here (except this one ofc) still have a modified date of 4 years ago, including my beautiful, carefully hand-crafted, painstakingly made 404 page, the tutorial page (i think that came bundled with the site???) and these two test pages.
I stole the testpage one from somewhere, unchanged. I might actually do one of those "what i like/don't like/dni" pages one day, t̶h̶a̶t̶ ̶w̶a̶y̶ ̶i̶ ̶c̶a̶n̶ ̶t̶e̶l̶l̶ ̶p̶e̶o̶p̶l̶e̶ ̶h̶o̶w̶ ̶m̶u̶c̶h̶ ̶i̶ ̶l̶o̶v̶e̶ ̶M̶e̶o̶w̶s̶c̶l̶e̶s̶ ̶F̶o̶r̶t̶n̶i̶t̶e̶ hehe.